Hi, if you didn’t know I recently came back on here after a year. I always felt like sharing my art on DeviantArt wasn’t enough. But before I started that, I always dreamed of just being loved and noticed by other people. (Not in a weird traumatic clingy way or anything) Just like, I dont know.. noticed by other people and them knowing who I am, and me knowing who THEY were, texting each other like cool friends, being in each other projects, drawing art together, just being..known.
Back when I was younger, and by younger I mean 11, I gotten into Invader Zim. And that was probably the first fandom I’ve gotten accepted too on Roblox. I knew a lot of people, and well they knew me too. Some people loved my OC, and somes didn’t. I didn’t really care though, just them knowing who I was, it was enough for me. Without experience I started trying to draw my OC, but failed miserably with old bases and poor drawings of ZIM. Drawing over the character with my design that I originally thought was good (This happened in august of 2021) I always used to be bad at art back then, and I knew that. My friends telling me it was good anyways. Gacha was my only way to make characters.
No matter how hard I tried, I just always seemed to give up. But looking back, I start to question myself. Did I really try? Was I REALLY putting everything into my work? I don’t think so.. I never thought that when I was younger, though really seeing what I did back in the day made me realize, it was perfect to me when I was little. Even though I cringe looking back at it now, I was almost proud of it back then. Going back onto the whole “People knowing who I am sitution, and me knowing who they are.”
I joined DeviantArt in June, 13 2023. And even though the first thing you think of when you hear that is “Foot Fetishes and Groomers and Vore” it’s not ALL that… I could really thank DeviantArt for actually EXPANDING my art selection… and a few friends helped me too, even though she got exposed for bullying somebody and doing horrible things, I still like to thank her for helping me. Seeing 2 likes on my art back then really made me happy.. despite the fact just joining. Even though I never been in the “art game” before. June 15, 2023 I had achieved 5 watchers, and made art about it. I was really grateful for that despite my first watcher was a weirdo and said the n word a lot… thus having to block him… I guess you…all start…somewhere..?? Now that I have 596 watchers.. getting 70 favorites everytime I upload art makes me super happy.
I decided to start following people and interracting with their accounts, and that was a big success I ended up making a few best friends on there. (Shout out to KARMAFOXX0, Cheloski, Qingwaa, kingof2010, MilkyDV, Imlyn2004, LmaoBraixen, Vietal-Republic, TrickyToonTrove, and Bronydude6455) I never had felt so.. loved, they loved my art and they loved the TRUE me.. people started making fanart of my main OC Invader Val, and I never had loved something so much as much as I do with my own art..
School had really set me back, and I stopped making art after a while untill June of 2024. and now that I’m saying this, I dont want to be known on just DeviantArt, but other platforms as well… I had recently earned 3k on tiktok before I left because I sinply didn’t know what to post. I left my youtube with 370 followers.. I didn’t know what to post.. I never posted on Twitter, or Newgrounds. I just signed up to Artfight and FurAfinity, but all of this will change next year. I am finally going back to homeschooling and I can definitely tell you we’re BACK in business.
I may not know my way around these websites yet, but I wanted to be the nicest person on here… on ANY platform, just being nice myself makes me feel happy, and seeing everybody else happy just warms my heart. Finally learning the concept of art, I might even try to get better in the future. I am 14 after all. It’s only been 3/2 years since 2021, and I’m finally trying to make a difference. I may not be able to watch everything or like and favourite and rate everything 6 stars, or even try to write long paragraphs on people’s blogs and art. But. I. Will. Try.
I don’t want to die without knowing that people never knew me and my characters I made, putting my blood , sweat , and tears into. and I didnt want vice-versa, there are many people who are like me and I want to get to know them.
If you’re still reading this, people on newgrounds, and everywhere else. You matter, love yourself and be you. and people will love you for who you are. If you done wrong, it’s okay. Just try to be better, and learn from your mistakes. You can get better in anything. Take care of yourself, love others around you, being a good person will help so much in this wretched sad world. You may not know how happy you can make a person just by complimenting their art, or a animation they made. <3
